"Make Art"

Once- Best movie ever :)

"fair play for those who dare to dream and don't give up..."

ONCE- FALLING SLOWLY

Happy Valentines

Thanks, Lyss... I do like her music :)
sassy and edgy.

"Little Bit"
Lykke Li, Sweden

hands down
i'm too proud for love
but with eyes shut
it's you i'm thinking of
but how we move from A to B?
it can't be up to me
'cause you don't know
eye to eye
thigh to thigh
i let go

i think i'm..

a little bit, a little bit
a little bit in love with you
but only if you're
a little but, a little bit, a little bit
in lo-lo-lo-lo-love with me
oh

ooo-ooo...

and for you i keep my legs apart
and forget about my tainted heart
and i will never ever be the first
to say it
but still I,
yes you know I..I..I..
i would do it,
push a button
pull a trigger,
climb a mountain
jump off a cliff,
'cause you know baby
i love you love you a little bit
i would do it, i would say it
i would mean it, we could do it
it was you and i and if only i..

i think i'm
a little bit, a little bit
a little bit in love with you
but only if you're
a little but, a little bit, little bit
in lo-lo-lo-lo-love with me

come here, stay with me
stroke me by the hair
'cause i would give anything, anything
to have you as my man

a little bit, a little bit
a little bit in love with you
but only if you're
a little but, a little bit, little bit
in lo-lo-lo-lo-love with me

train, train, train

Today I slept and slept and slept. Why...because I've been feeling a little down these last few days and I've finally hit the wall. There has been a lot of Lululemon Events that I have been involved with so that has occupied a lot of my down time, but all that is over and I've been struck with less than pleasant thoughts and scenarios that I can't seem to shake off. With that being said, I'll leave it at that and explain what I will do to get over it...

Last year, I did two fitness shows for the first time. I chose to enter that world because I truly missed performing and training in general. I came into the end the of the season with little training and a half a** routine. This year, I wasn't sure if I was going to compete again... only because I am not quite sure if I like the scene, if you know what I mean. But, it's a go. I'm all in. My trainer wants me to do some of the other shows as well, (she used to do all of them, won them and now is pro) so she is motivating me and it's inspiring ;) Why the f not... I'm a competitor at heart.

So, this is where the fun begins. Been training for a month now at the gym... and now it's time to incorporate all my other interests. To kick the nonsense that is going on in my life to the curb, I'll immerse myself in my practice. Here's a glimpse:

Monday:
Gym- Legs (Nicole)
Power Yoga (Bryan)
Open Gym (LA Gymnastics)
Tuesday:
Core Energy Flow (Exhale)
Anusara Yoga (Lauri)
Wednesday:
Gym-Chest/Back (Nicole)
Thursday:
Gym-Arms (Nicole)
Budokon (Jay)
Dance (Dolphina)
Friday:
Power Yoga (SM)
Saturday:
OFF/Alignment Therapy
Sunday:
Core Enegery Flow (Exhale)
Dance (Lulu)
Power Yoga (Rudy)
BreakDance (EDGE)

Would like to add Parkour in there and maybe if I'm brave enough some Krav Maga.

Hopefully this will help prepare me for this season. I think my first competition will be in May. A few CA local ones, vegas 2x, miami, colorado and possibly hawaii. Aww any excuse to go to hawaii...

So there you go... get out there and move your body... you'll feel so much better, I know I do!

focus!

Lyss was suppose to go to Spain in the summer, but it looks as if it may be too expensive. Soo, I think instead of her going, we're chatting about both taking 2 weeks or so off to travel together. Which is great, but this is where my business ambition/focus gets thrown in the back seat. Something that I seem to struggle with is my general desire to move move move. Nothing too extreme, but I can't seem to stay in one place for too long. There is too much unknown to be known and at this point, it seems all I can do is dream about it... and I feel stuck there. I'm not wanting much either... I don't want to take off and leave for months at a time- it's rather simple really- I'd just like to see how other people live...a taste of something different... another perspective. Maybe LA is getting to me...maybe not. The thing is, with the biz, I have the strongest desire to succeed, but it also constricts me from just getting up and leaving. But no worries LiveFit Studio crew- I've figured out how to balance it all. Aww the perks of being your own boss.

Well, enough rambling. Time for the gym... maybe some budokon, maybe some krav maga...I need to be worked out hard today and then crash tonight... I woke up wayyy to early.

peace out homies.
btw, random i know, but Step Up 2 comes out on Valentines Day and you must go see it. Pretty bad ass dancing it seems ;)

musica

Check this event out... good music, great people...
(Thanks Jen!!)

Hotel Cafe Tour w/ Ingrid Michaelson, Cary Brothers, Meiko & more
The Music Box at the Fonda , Hollywood , CA
Sat, Apr 12, 2008 08:00 PM

I'm lovin me some chill/indie music lately... gotta love lyrics you can relate to.

Although I do have to say I've been rockin out to some old skool fav's... NIN, Bush, Live, The Killers, The Hives, Weezer, Pearl Jam.... so random and so opposite! But ya know, when you're in the mood, this'll do ya.

But, wait, listen to the new Usher song... it's pretty dope too.

Ok, I'm all over the board with music... just thought I'd share this cool event with y'all. My last concert was ...hmm... Damien Rice last year... danggg... love, love, love his music- sooo amazingly passionate, soooo much feeling, deep and moving. I'll be writing my review (hmm, I may be turning into Spencer, here) after the event, so check back if you're interested.

inspire me...

Stella Im Hultberg is coming to SF in March and LA in August. I can't wait to see her art work in a near by gallery ... yay! My favorites are posted here and I especially would love to see her exhibit called 'Together, Alone'.

"Her work focuses on the organic relationship between people, the world that surrounds them and the world that lives inside of them. In that world she finds their stories, their dreams, their passions and their fears and brings them to life on to tea stained pages that become the stage. She begins with these intangible ideas and by working the canvas with inks and washes she begins to reveal the sensual characters that these ideas belong to. These women are stylized representations of idolized forms that have the ability to appear vulnerable and powerful at the same time".

VULNERABLE & POWERFUL

hmm. That's very much how I feel right now. Maybe a little more powerful considering it is me who has ultimately made some bold changes in my life at this time. I'm sitting alone in my new room, with my new bed, my new curtains, my old habits and hoping to come out stronger than I ever was before.

It's quite interesting what I have come across these last few days. One of my biggest clients- one who is a quadruple crown MILLIONAIRE- says I am the best at what I do and how simple it is going to be for me to succeed. God love her. Thank goodness for that push of positivity and encouragement because sometimes I feel I can so easily fall into self doubt.

The thing is, I write that I can fall into self doubt, but I never let that get the best of me. My vision and reality is quite clear. I've always been the type to see exactly what I want and do whatever necessary to make it happen. I remember early on, with gymnastics especially, through dance, through educational theatre- all I had to do was focus. I had the drive, the determination, the passion, the desire. I don't think I will ever lose that.

What is ironic, while I can be so high on drive, I can be so low at the same time. I was told (according to my astrological sign) that I am the type of person where my happiness is surely effected by how I happy I am in a relationship. I was always the type of person who believed that is crap. That you can be happy by yourself and you don't need anyone else to determine your happiness. But ya know, I think, now I believe it may be true. I know myself and I know I AM the type of person who enjoys sharing my life with someone. I love the feeling of being in love. It certainly inspires me and pushes my creativity and passion for life in general.

That being said, I'm vulnerable. Thank goodness my friends are like-minded individuals. What would it be like if you were not able to see the WORLD through other people's CREATIVITY??? The world would be bland and I would have no drive...


Thank goodness for artists.

dirty old man...

what the hell. for the first time at the Lu, i got really really upset. working with the customers, i normally chat a bit, do a little self promotion for my studio, but this time, i just wanted run far far away from a particular character who represents the *ssholes of mankind. was doing what i normally do and this older gentleman, pig if you will, decides to follow me and as he continues, i ask him politely if he needed anything... which he did... a fit room. i take him over to them, he leans a little too close for comfort and whispers "i know i'm not suppose to say this, but you have a nice behind". ok. so, nice compliment and all, but completely disgusted by this dude. i laugh it off, say thanks.. he asks if i work out, i tell him yes and he replies with "its looks so nice, i can tell". nasty! the worst worst worst part, he stares me up and down...mind you, not a quick stare, but a full on up and down/super slow stare. thank goodness, i thought to myself, someone was coming around the corner to save me from this awkward moment. little did i know until a few minutes later, it was his wife. i ask her name (so i can write it on her door), i spelled it wrong on accident, she grabs the marker from hands... completely scratches out her misspelled name and slams the door in my face. lovely, i thought. i start walking away and they full on had a yelling argument over what just happened. they were making a huge scene. i felt so sick. i walked to the back room and waited till they left. man... one, i felt a bit violated... i know it could've been worse, and two, i felt really bad at the same time. the poor wife. she was sooo mad at me. I began to take it personal and then it made me sad... BUT i'm over the sadness and now im just mad ;) how rude! hmph.