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Lil' MiSsfit

2009-07-10T20:10:00.000-07:00

Ambresssa blog is going to semi-retire, friends. You can still keep track of my shenanigans on my website www.ambernimedez.com and my otha blog www.lilmissfit.blogspot.com

Booyah.

Will probably throw in some random blurbs here, but eventually my rambling will merge into one ...

Happy reading.

Am to the Ber.

whoa

2009-02-27T22:06:00.000-08:00

funny how one opportunity leads you to another.

egoscue sd-egoscue la-msfitness-vegas-la-livefit studio-egoscue seattle-LIFE-seattle-fremont-la.

along the way i've run into and met so many people. new people, new friends, old friends, and super old friends. some/most very meaningful.

what i often visualize is walking in someone else's shoes. seeing life from another perspective. one in particular right now. a dear friend of mine, a long time friend.. since we were 8 years old... is picking up shop and movin out of the country. not by choice, by career. i am just thankful for reconnecting and catching up on life...timing is everything and it just so happened we were literally in and out of the same 3 cities around the same time- coincidence? i think not.

this is why everything happens for a reason. somewhat sad to see a friend move out of the country, but at the same time, what an amazing opportunity. i certainly wish i could just pack up and leave sometimes... although, i do think thats in the cards for me. it's all in the gameplan.

thought i'd just write a few words about that tonight, because, well, its just a friendly reminder that you never know where you'll be at any given certain time. Here for a year or two, there for 10 years or so, tomorrow a whole new world, out of your comfort zone where you have to just go with the flow. if an opportunity comes up, take it and run with it. you might not know why at the time, but its almost always for good reasons. follow your instinct :) Let go of comfort and see the unknown. Take that leap of faith...

can't sleep tonight

2009-02-22T03:06:00.000-08:00

flannel pj pants,
a long sleeve sweater top

some super
thigh high
white socks
from american apparel.

an empty apartment
a girl who can't sleep
wide awake and maybe anxious.

tomorrow may
or maybe not
the opportunity
almost there.

please don't disappoint me.

i don't know why
but it always seems to happen
i dream it and see it

and then its taken away.

by something
by someone
a slap in the face
for no apparent reason

let down

let go

oh wait, once more, its there, its back
please stay, don't go,
don't disappoint.

let down, no way
not me
ever again.

a sigh, some warmth, my bed.

heavy eyes
maybe its time

i fall
and drift

i. need. you.

train harder

2009-02-19T21:32:00.000-08:00

having an issue with training these days. i need a consistent training partner and i'd like a new gym..... bleeehhhhh. I can't seem to bring myself to join Equinox, but most of my fitness competitor buddies go there and its just nice to work out with people who have the same goals. I just can't afford it. boo. There has to be a better way.

soo... i saw a video taken of me and i nearly fainted. lol. I've been trying to gain and maintain my weight of 115, but think I am going to drop 10lbs, immediately. all i saw was bad posture, no tone, and all the ice cream i have been eating the last few days gone to my face! arrgg. I should have that all in check.

Proposed plan of action... i need a schedule. Here's my attempt:

Besides the cardio that i get from work- which is:
Mon - bike ride
tues- cardio beach run
wed- spin
thur- cardio beach run
fri- sand dunes

I am going to add on:

Mon- power yoga 6:30p
Tues- 6a-7a Circuit works 6:30p-8p power yoga
wed- gymnastics 7p
Thur- 6a-7a Circuit works 6:30p-8p power yoga
Fri- power yoga 6:30p

This is going to be a struggle, considering I AM NOT AN EARLY BIRD. But things have to change. Beware of crankiness, lord knows I can't fall asleep till 1:30A every night. K, its documented. Must do what's documented.

Trying to stay focused... there should be no excuse not to stay to follow this. Starts Monday... after my OSCAR WEEKEND of hosting The Red Carpet :)

a simple sunday afternoon quote

2009-02-15T13:08:00.000-08:00

"when you hit rock bottom... use the rock to start building your castle!"

fitness-fun-fam

2009-01-25T01:03:00.000-08:00

Went to the Fit Expo and ran into my sista sista! Nicole trained me last year around this time... and it was great to see her. Girl's got some power and I aspire to be just as successful as she was when she competed. She won Fitness America back in 2000, and is back in the game in her second year competing in the PRO division.

So funny thinking about training with her... every single session, we always got asked if we were sisters. Never failed. Two small powerhouses right here :)

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The other night I went out with some old Lu's... I just have to say... I understand exactly why I ended up there last year. I am so grateful for all the lulu's I connected with. They are the kind of friends I will have for life... the kind of people who are always positive, share the same kind of energy and look at life from a realistic point of view... keeping it real, no judgement, dream like there is no tomorrow... believe in them, goal set and achieve them. True, amazing friends!!

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My mom is coming to town... and so is Bonaldo! (Hm, Bonaldo is my sister's nic name "bon" and my bro in laws nic name "naldo" put together). They try to come down to celebrate Naldo's bday every year and it's about that time again! Nalds! you are getting old! Teehee... I can get away with saying that.. he is my bro!! I think we are going to dinner at Versailles ... the BEST Cuban food here... yummy! There goes my diet. Anyhow, the mother is flying in Thurs... I'm hoping she'll participate in my work day. I really want to her come to boot camp and training to see what it's like. Bonaldo flies in Fri. It's gonna be a full house with ALL Nimedez girls. Poor Nalds.
Pics will be posted!!

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"As I grow to understand life less and less,
I learn to love it more and more"

Be happy everyone :)

a few days old

2009-01-18T18:52:00.000-08:00

Inspired by many recent thoughts and a new favorite song by Adele "Chasing Pavements"
Written a few days ago, didn't feel like posting... but might as well.

When you know, you know

Stop thinking if you are doubting

Let your instinct pull you through

a chance, you better take it.

If it doesn't feel right

understand the risk is always better

then staying where you are.

What if you don't,

the staleness

the comfort

the reality.

Stray away and leap

leap into the pure innocence that you don't have to try for.

Right in front of your eyes

the epitome of what you dream.

Awake and it's there,

do you take it,

do you leave it,

do you sit and wonder?

I wonder.

I wonder if it's worth it,

is it all in my head,

is it my reality

or is it my dream...

It is my dream

right in front of my face

a risk i am willing

for just a moment of pure bliss,

i know in the end

it is worth taking that chance.

"Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere"

2008-12-29T00:53:00.000-08:00

Tripoli. Ravioli. Boo.

check it out

2008-12-28T14:21:00.000-08:00

www.ambernimedez.com

my big bro's xmas present to me :)

this years ongoing long term goal... become a familiar face in the industry as fitness model, competitor, and trainer.

starting new blog for my fitness career... check it at www.lilmissfit.blogspot.com

keeping this one... as it is a little mo personal, but who really cares bout that... just my random thoughts :)

xoxo- peace and love, always.

am

"E-piphany"

2008-12-05T21:42:00.000-08:00

"Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see Life with a clearer view again."

the thing is, they just flowed out before I even knew...

laughing and crying at the same time...

no matter how far, the closeness remains...

the closer we got, the more I knew...

...who means the world to me...who my best friend is... who I can always depend on... who I always think of...

As change happens in my life, one thing that stays ... is you.

the thing is, I'll have it no other way.

Articles-Videos-Blogs-oh my!

2008-11-19T12:27:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone-

Just a quick update on what's been going on this last month.

I attended a Fitness Model Competition in Beverly Hills- the one where I entered last minute and didn't feel ready at all for! Luckily, I made myself go and I am so thankful for it. I reconnected with a few people I haven't seen in awhile and met some awesome new ones!

From this competition, I've been working on a few things I'd like to share with you!

I am now a Fitness and Team contributor on two awesome Fitness websites. Please check my articles/blogs out and leave comments!

1. www.clarkbartram.com

www.clarkbartram.com/story/2008-11-09/got-pain.html

2. www.myfittribe.com

www.myfittribe.com/blog/amber-nimedez
www.myfittribe.com/articles/20081112/how-treat-musculoskeletal-pain-right-way.html

I just shot a few video blogs with Jamo for My Fit Tribe and a few functional circuit workouts. I hosted a short segment with Ozzie Jacobs as well for the site. We had a blast and they should be up within the next few weeks.

Another project that should be posted within the next 10 days is something that I'm REALLY stoked about! I met Rob Riches at this competition and we spent a full day out on location taping 2 segments for LA Muscle.TV We shot all day long and the footage is basically an "up close and personal" segment on me...a day in the life of a fitness girl in LA :)

I will be creating/producing/hosting fintess lifeystyle shows in the near future- my profile should be up soon. yay!

GOOD STUFF!

Rob introduced me to his manager and she is taking me under her wings. She has already rocked my world... submitting me to jobs and most importantly... booking me! I'll be shooting a little commercial spot on Monday :) yay, I'll be able to pay rent. HAHA.

If you haven't stopped by ECOOKIE on Abbot Kinney yet, do so! She's got some essential Winter outfits that are must haves. We just finished the Holiday Lookbook and you should be getting your copy soon. We shot at Bodega in Santa Monica...ironically, my favorite wine spot in SaMo! Was a lot of fun, as always.

What else...Just got home from Seattle... had a great time :) Next Therapy Trip-
Dec. 14-16. Book your appointment with ME NOW! 800-995-8434.

Ok, I think that's it with the updates. Heading home for thanksgiving on the 26th-1st.... I love the holiday season! So much to be thankful about....

Until next time!

hot like fire...

2008-11-06T13:31:00.000-08:00

pumped up

inspired

ready to rock and roll.

fearless

sailing

high on life.

bring it

bring it on

there is no giving up.

onward and upward

that's where i'll go

you'll see me there and everywhere.........

i am

2008-10-28T11:01:00.000-07:00

not OK today.

reality set in and i am breathless

chest sunken in

and tears in my eyes.

heavy feet and a loss of words.

failure is it? time for change?

all of a sudden,

my dream is just a dream...

unavailable and out of reach.

My friend Erica says you have 3 days to feel sorry for yourself and then after that you get on with your life. this is day 1.

i am sad.

one day at a time

2008-10-21T23:04:00.000-07:00

some direction- some things to look forward to- some change is necessary-

10/23- Ecookie Lookbook Photoshoot. It's that time again :)

10/24-10/26- Fitness Model International LA Regional & Finals/Rogiani Exhibit, Wilshire Theatre- Bev Hills... not at all ready... feeling like a heffer, but too late to bail. Stay on track, otherwise you will feel humiliated on stage...just as I will feel this weekend. And it's all my fault! argg... at least I get to sport my new VIX bathing suit...

11/8- TAFA Ms. Fitness Universe, Ontario

11/15- INBA Ms. Fitness, Corona

11/16-11/19- Seattle Travel Trip. Schedule appointment with me: 800-995-8434. Starting Patch Fitness Classes in Seattle & possible workshop at new Lululemon @ Pacific Place and University Village. Stay tuned for more updates.

11/20- LA AUTO SHOW, preview night. Well, it's either that event or travel.

Rest of November.... in the yay area for thanksgivin... i love the holiday the season :)

Was hoping to retire my fitness routine and not do any comps the rest of this year, but the pressure is turned on high for me to compete these last few. Just not on my game right now. Trying to focus.

haven't realy kept up with this blog, but i intend to. check out pics from Ms. Fitness USA Finals and photoshoots- www.myspace.com/ambresa Worked hard this year for it and had a lot to say... but hoping you can see it all thru my pics... just read my eyes... and when im not looking at the camera, its because some thoughts are better left unsaid...

until next time.

I wonder...

2008-09-05T11:15:00.001-07:00

If Only You Were Here
By Audrey Kawasaki

A friend of mine introduced me to this artists work about a year ago and I just recently came across this piece ... so simple, yet purrty.

I thought I could write something romantic and meaningful about this picture, but all I can think about right now, right this second is.... WHERE IS THE UPS GUY???? I'm horrible. where is my patience???

hmmm...

if only you were here.. mr. ups man...
i could go to the gym and practice my routine
i could go get a thai massage
and sit in the sauna

if only you were here... mr. ups man...
i can stop feeling paranoid that i will miss your delivery
i can start my day and enjoy the sun
i can feel less antsy and leave my apt

if only you were here... mr. ups man...
please come soon, puh-lease!
a girls got things to do!

AHHHHHHH!

just a thought

2008-08-27T00:08:00.000-07:00

"Life is not about the number of breaths you take, but about the number of moments that take your breath away."

don't sell yourself short, be in that moment-

sneak peak

2008-08-25T10:21:00.000-07:00

Here are some shots from the photoshoot yesterday. They are untouched proofs courtesy of Joshua Targownik.

Hair: Myra Penaloza
Make Up: Kimberly Liebe
Location: Burn Fitness in Santa Monica

1. (Yup- that's the dress this year)

2. Circuit Works.

3. Don't know about you, but I always practice yoga in hot shorts and a fur vest. Awesome.

More to add to the portfolio... check back later :)

Get bigger, but lean out...

2008-08-21T22:15:00.000-07:00

2 weeks left till Ms. Fitness USA. I am going for top 10 this year- last year I placed 16th. I'm a bit bummed this year because I am not up to where I'd like to be physique wise. Feedback has been the same all year. Granted I put on more muscle and gained more shape, the judges and sponsors all want more more more. As a fitness trainer, next to my average client, I look fit and muscular... next to a fitness girl... I look scrawny and frail! Every competition I have gone to this year, the judges tell me the same thing... Gain more muscle, at the same time lean out! I know this and have been working on it, I swear... patience is a virtue... and it will come one day :)

The great news is... I found my dress :) Finally! I love it love it love it and want to wear it EVERYWHERE hehe. It's Ema Savahl...just beautiful. See, another reason not to get huge... I don't want to look like a muscley man in a gorgeous dress!! Can't wait to wear it.

Speaking of getting to wear it... I'll have the chance to do just that in my next photoshoot on sunday! Haven't done a shoot in awhile and I'm very excited. I have an awesome hair stylist and an amazing MUA I'll be fortunate to work with. yay!

So vegas is finally set- rooms, dress, costume... bling bling! Thank goodness for hollywood. My mom is going and one of my best friends from the Lu is going... she is my personal hair sylist... yay for big hair this year! Can't wait to be back on the big stage. Man, I miss performing.

Oh, speaking of the Lululemon... I am sad to say... I will no longer be an official lulu girl. August 31st is my last day... no more merching, no more window displays! So sad, but I'm a rockin and a rollin with other gigs and I have no time... but have nothing but love for the company! I will miss the Lu's tremendously. I don't know how I would have handled this past year without them. Love you girls.

Well, there is no where else to go besides onward and upward! Can't wait to compete and prove to myself that I worked hard this year. I love competitions!! Bring it on!! Here's to BIGGER and better this year!!!

did you buy your ticket? almost sold out event!

2008-08-18T21:30:00.001-07:00

Buy your tickets now!!!!! now!!!!! :)

2008-08-16T19:16:00.000-07:00

I'll be co-hosting this event :)

Wong Fu Productions and Far East Movement presents:

International Secret Agents Concert
Time and Place

Date:
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Time:
4:30pm - 9:30pm
Location:
San Gabriel Mission Playhouse
Street:
320 South Mission Drive
City/Town:
San Gabriel, CA

We are "Secret Agents" because breaking into mainstream media is no easy task for Asian Americans. Therefore we have to find other ways, to create our own path into the entertainment world.
We are "International" because we strive to reach people all over the world with our work in efforts to positively impact the image of Asian Americans.

Wong Fu Productions and FarEast Movement have joined together to host a huge concert in hopes to unite the Asian American community in support of some of the newest, and most talented groups and artists out there right now. We wish to inspire and influence this new generation of Asian Americans. Hope to see you there!

Artist Line Up:
FAR EAST MOVEMENT (FM) - (National Radio spins for "Lowridin" and
"You've Got A Friend") - Hip Hop
WONG FU PRODUCTIONS - Film producers, Will be screening
new/unreleased work
QUEST DANCE CREW (Fox's "So You Think You Can Dance", American
Idol) - Dance Crew
TATUM JONES (America's Got Talent) - R&B Group
MAGNETIC NORTH - Hip Hop, "Drift Away" MV with Wong Fu
Productions
JENNIFER CHUNG - Acoustic, Singer/Songwriter, over 5 million hits on
youtube

TICKET INFO
PRESALE TICKET INFO:

$15 ($25 at the door) - General Admission

$45 ($55 at the door) - VIP Tickets
-VIP/ No Waiting in line for entry into the show
-Priority line for Autograph Sessions for all artists
-Autographed Poster from event

$90 ($100 at the door) - Backstage Access/Vip
-Private VIP Backstage Lounge with Free drinks and food.
-Backstage Access (Before, during and after event)
-Autographed Poster from event
- Dance Like Michael Jackson Tee Shirt
-VIP/ Priority Entrance To event

Purchase tickets HERE: http://www.internationalsecretagents.com

Please support this event! It's gonna be huge!

xox
am

astrology.

2008-08-06T21:20:00.000-07:00

I was looking at an old notebook today and I came across my notes from my vedic reading back on January 30, 2008. My friend Steph gave that to me as a Christmas present and it turned out to be very interesting. I'm glad I did it and I just want to jot down some things because a lot of it seems to be running parallel with what I am going thru or have gone thru. Btw, vedic readings are based on your birthday (including year), what time you were born and where you born. This lady knew nothing of me and the session took place over the phone.

Overview of myself:
-people oriented, genuine, curious, versatile, trend setter, compassion for people, urge to express myself, sensitive.
-tend to draw to people who are doing the same thing
-need stimulus, change, playful, adventurous, travel

My joy and love is variety in life. Whoever I am with needs to be the same way.

Career:
-competitive, business, dedication, truthful
-partnerships will be strong in business especially in 2013/2014 (potential for wealth)
-bold, daring. pretty hard on self, sometimes struggle with self doubt
-demanding childhood directly translates to money making

Next 2 years = testing ground
-crisp/sharp mental analysis, accuracy- able to see with great clarity.

-Enormously creative, if not, down on self.

-task master

-Pretty tough finances right now, high expenses

Dec 2007-Jan 2011: Travel abroad possibly relating to fitness. lots of potential.

April 2008 - Jan/Feb 09: Foreign country = unfolds in a surprising way = may rock the boat, but is a good opportunity = unique experience = also has to do with performance and making money.

September 08/Oct. 08- Transition!
Relationships/partnerships. Radical shift. Both intimate and business.
Strong female long lasting friends. Learning how to let go of control. Creating a long lasting vehicle for self expression.

And that's all she wrote.

Why post this? Well, I guess, just cause. Plus, close friends, I ask you... don't you think its kind of bizarre... Hehe. Kinda cool, I guess.

30 Day Challenge by Ms. Erica Rhodes

2008-08-05T08:58:00.000-07:00

Erica Rhodes has become one of my best friends here in LA. She is an incredibly gifted actress- an extremely funny funny gal!! Not only is she a great friend and a talented actress, but she is someone who can really inspire you. She has discipline like no other and once she puts her mind to it, she really sticks to it. That's my kind of friend! Determination, discipline and action... results will follow. That is how she flys... and I love to fly with her. (literally, did I mention she is also my fellow flying trapeze friend) ha!

I'd like to share an article that Erica recently wrote for a Lululemon newsletter called Lululime :) She constantly challenges herself and the article focuses on a 30 Day Challenge- taking 1 class a day for 30 days. Not only do I find this hysterical, but also motivational... there may be some inside jokes in there, but, you get the point...

30 Reasons why YOU should do the 30 day class challenge:

1) You'll look HOT. Hot like Jessica Alba HOT. Hot like Paris Hilton
HOT. Hot like...like...yes, like Kendrah McKay HOT. It's doesn't get
hotter than that now does it?
2) You'll be able to fit into your old Diesel jeans you bought when
your parents were still paying your rent. The jeans you popped the
button off of with those ten pounds you gained from dipping chocolate
chips into peanut butter every night. Amen.
3) You might get a six pack, or a four pack. Or at least it will feel
a bit firmer around your midsection.
And you'll feel the right to have your belly button pierced. Even if
you still have the same ring in from when you were sixteen.
4) You'll see your sociopath ex boyfriend. And he'll proudly tell you,
"Yeah...I spin twice a week" his arrogant chin raised in the air. And
you'll laugh at him. "Twice a week? Pathetic."
5) You'll sleep like a baby. Zzzzzzzz...
6) You'll save money, because you won't have any time to spend it.
7) Jay Co (at Power Yoga) will tell you, "Your downward dog is fine."
And you'll say, "You're fine."
8) You won't feel guilty taking the Relaxation Class at Exhale. And
you might even fall asleep. Zzzzzzzz...
9) You'll eat less, because you won't have any time to eat.
10) It's a great way to get out of work on time. "Sarita...I simply
HAVE to leave right at 2:30 to make spinning. I'm doing the 30 day
challange after all!"
11) You'll be able to rock a rockin' new hairdo. Just like..Mayra.
12) You might even be able to try on the ugliest thing in the store
(ahem,...Denim? Seriously?) and look...OK.
13) You won't feel too guilty when you go on vacation and find
yourself eating bagels, cheese, ice cream (every day, sometimes
twice), chips, pizza, need I go on? (Amber faints)
14) You'll look at Sarah Jessica Parker and think, "Hell I can look like that."
15) You'll decide you want to run a marathon now. Why stop here?
16) Your old friend you haven't seen since you were 18 will say, "You
look EXACTLY the same."
17) You'll be able to brag to your fellow lulus...EVERY day. "I'm
doing the 30 day challenge. Na na na bu bu."
18) Your Mom will say, "Your arms are so firm!"
19) You'll get to talk about lulu clothing a LOT.
20) It will become habit. YOu'll have to get your daily 'fix.'
21) You'll go on a date, and the guy will keep saying, "You must be in
really good shape. Man. You must be in really good shape."
22) The teachers at YAS will know what your favorite song is, and
they'll play it just for you. Well, at least Dennis will.
23) When Becky catches you at singles spinning class, you have a great
excuse. "It was the ONLY class left. And I'm doing the 30 day
challenge. I HAD to take it."
24) You'll wow the socks off Alba by doing Circuit Works and then CSR in a row.
25) Even if you don't win the staff challenge, you'll still have
something to brag about.
26) Michelle will ask you to write in the lululime about the 30 day
challenge. You'll say," If you insist."
27) You'll have tons of energy...like Kendrah on caffeine.
28) You'll get a lot of cash back from pay outs, and feel mighty rich,
until you spend it all on parking. Grrrrr...
29) You'll work harder in other areas of your life. (Sell those groove pants!)
30) You'll have more love for yourself and for the lovely people
around you. Especially the LUs.
31) You won't want to stop.
32) You won't HAVE to stop.

Who's on board? I'm ready for another challenge.

Please challenge yourselves and other's around you- there is nothing like achieving your goals in life- dream big- anything is possible.

Check out Erica in her mini webseries Apt. 45. You can check it out here.

Music Video Released!

2008-08-01T20:03:00.000-07:00

Check out the music video I am featured in!!

Dance Like Michael Jackson- FAR EAST MOVEMENT!!
In collaboration with WONG FU PRODUCTIONS (CANNES FESTIVAL), QUEST DANCE CREW (SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE & AMERICAN IDOL), SHUTTERSHADES (KANYE WEST).

Let me know what you think! Check it out here.

Or here :)

Fox 11 News Segment

2008-07-31T11:05:00.000-07:00

Did you catch it? You can watch it here.

yikes...

2008-07-18T23:16:00.001-07:00

an off day...

i hate to complain, but i must document that today, my head still hurts. go away headache! it's such a mental game i suppose. today i am wondering about my intentions. in what right mind would one sacrifice health to achieve something unrealistic, when the reality is something they actually don't mind at all! hm, think about that one for a minute. anyway, i think i may be acting somewhat like a big whimp right now.. so i will stop complaining and hit the sack! Tomorrow I am training at Gold's Gym in Venice-- what a natural rush that will be!!

one more note to self... why is it that today i have been so freakin hungry all day!? And why couldn't I get thru my routine today even with an audience? hmm. something is off.

tomorrow will be better...

going to seattle...

2008-07-17T14:25:00.000-07:00

Ok, so it looks like I will be in Seattle this Sunday instead of Del Mar. Sorry SD friends, would have loved to seen you!!!

Here are the dates I will be traveling to Seattle:

July 20, 21, 22, 23
August 18, 19, 20
September 15, 16, 17

Book your appointments with me =) Call SD to schedule: 800-995-8434

The Egoscue Method
www.egoscue.com

focus.

2008-07-13T16:29:00.000-07:00

It's interesting how the brain works. Somewhere inside of us we have this control switch that we can sometimes either turn on, or easily turn off. For me, the switch is normally on. Since my last competition, I have had an extra surge of power, motivation and will. Easy- the determination and discipline was all there. I was completely focused. I absolutely thrive off of challenge and I'm almost always eager to prove to myself and others that if you simply stay focused and keep your eye on the goal, it is yours... if you have earned it. It has been mine- the control, the workout, the diet, the routine, the strength, the power, the passion.

Yesterday, was another story. I lost it- the flip switched and all of a sudden, I shut down. After a few weeks of the same routine (get up, cardio, eat, clients, eat, weight train, eat, teaching 4 classes, eat, closing lulu, gym/dance practice, sleep) I finally felt the pressure. My trainer always tells me to focus... all day long that is in my head, "FOCUS AMBER, FOCUS". After 3 very high profile clients yesterday (all in extreme pain), I completely lost my focus. I went to my favorite bakery and ate my most favorite danish.... oh yes, I chowed down on the most delicious custard bun ever... washed it down with an ice cold Milk Tea... I felt satisfied for about 1 minute then felt the aftermath of being very sleepy and sluggish. I may add I felt so very guilty and so disappointed in myself I started to feel depressed. At that moment, all my insecurities came out and I cried my eyes out. I felt defeated. You have two options at this point. You can loose yourself in your sorrows, or you can use it as fuel to pick yourself up and move forward.

Well, I must say, I am a shaker and a mover- and I choose to move forward. Today, I will be at the gym after work and after my meeting. To add to the pressure, I forgot to mention, the other day, my fitness routine completely changed. The routine I have been practicing no longer exists. I have one month to perfect this version before International Legacy in Colorado. The pressure is on, but I accept the challenge. I fcking love the feeling sheer determination. (excuse my french, those of you who know me know I have a sailor's mouth ;) Point being, I'm back on track and if you ever feel burnt out, take a fcking break! Your soul, body and mind need to recharge at some point!! Just don't loose sight of the big picture, ya? Glad you're with me ;)

So, I leave you with my final thought... dream big, stay focused and LOVE what you do- enjoy the ride my dear friends!!! Don't let anything get in the way of what you want.

FOCUS.

highlights

2008-07-04T23:36:00.000-07:00

Hawaii
Hawaii was fantastic :) Besides winning the title Ms. Fitness Hawaiian Islands, my favorite highlight was... of course, once again, getting soaked on the catamaran riding the choppy ocean waters. I just love sailing out there especially when the wind picks up and the boat feels like it's going to flip over! Jack Johnson playing in the background, good company (my mama), sea turtles, dolphins... aww, the luxury of being out on the water far away from the island, where all you see is blue ocean salt water. Oh Hawaii, I would visit every year if I could.

Ms. Fitness LA
I decided to go ahead and compete in the LA show... what fun! Just like Hawaii, I met genuine fitness gals and had a great time. This time, I placed 4th. But that is exactly what I needed to step it up. I got some really great constructive critism, if you will, and am looking forward to see how much growth (in all aspects) I can get before Nationals. Here is a glimpse at the physique round... my absolute favorite round... NOT. Can we say.... stalling so I don't have to show you my back side. Still workin on glutes and hams ;)

Maxim
Few more days of voting ya'll. Semi finalist round ends July 7th. I wonder where I stand in that goofy contest. Would be nice to win and have a photoshoot/cover with them. Spread the word!

Dance Like Mike Teaser 1

Produced by Wong Fu Productions and Far East Movement. Watch the teaser here.
The video will be released AUGUST 1st!! Yay!! Was super fun making this music video. QUEST Dance Crew was featured... (have to admit I was semi star struck by HOK LOL... I love breakdancing! Im not in this teaser... but check back for more teasers to be released this month!

upcoming events

JULY 20, 21, 22, 23- The Egoscue Method Travel Therapy Trip- Del Mar HQ PATCH CAMP... making an appearance....
AUGUST 1- Dance Like Michael Jackson Music Video Release
AUGUST 8 & 9, 2008-12th Legacy Intn'l Fitness, Figure, Bodybuilding & SportAerobic Finals, Colorado Springs
SEPTEMBER 6th- Flex Appeal All Female International Championships, Las Vegas
SEPTEMBER 10&11- Ms. Fitness USA, Las Vegas

waitin...

2008-06-19T23:00:00.000-07:00

so this is the real me ya'll. i'm back home in the bay sprawled out on my sister's couch, glasses, sweat pants a tank top, hair pulled back... chillin like a villain. notebook by my side, laptop playn some tunes, water with lemon and the window open. its warm and my winter blanket that i store here is finally tucked away in the closet. aww, the bay... it's nice to be back.

just waitin, killin some time, thought I'd play catch up for a hot minute before i snooze off into the land of sleep.. or lack there of. Tomorrow I'm off to Hawaii :) I hope I wake up without this sore throat, stuffy nose and headache... bad timing. I'm sure beautiful Hawaii will cure all. That is the goal.

Finally learned my routine these last few days.. let's hope I hit my tricks, let alone remember it all ...hehe... slightly under prepared, but im most excited to be on stage again. Many thanks to Rae... she brought out the attitude in my routine that I didn't have last year :)

I'll post some pics once I'm back... I'll also try and post some pics from the trapeze show.. which, btw, was awesome! LA Orchestra playing while we fly under hot lights on a cool spring night... OH. Look out for the article in LA Times... I may be featured.

Ok, I have lots to say, but getting tired now. I do want to mention I will be traveling up to Seattle once a month for the next 3 months. Im helping Egoscue out with travel therapy. Soo, if you know any pro athletes or people with back/joint pain, send em my way. I'll be there the week of July 20th. Call Egoscue HQ to set up your appointment.

hmm.. and those of you who like pain... come to my class at Circuit Works... I'll kick your *** into shape whether you like it or not :) hehe.

OK, sleepy. Hawaii, I'm ready for ya.

Maxim 2008 SemiFinalist :)

2008-06-02T23:35:00.000-07:00

If you see fit, vote for me :)
Sorry about the lame-o video LOL.

Free falling

2008-06-02T10:09:00.000-07:00

Update.

Wow. An update is much needed. Such a slacker, aye.
Hmm… where I left off… well, lot’s has happened in my world.

Few things …

Turned 28 years old last month… what a youngin I still am ;) I’m still a big kid with a big heart with endless dreams and hopes and desires. One thing I realized on my birthday… if there is ever an opportunity that may feel out of reach, impossible, unrealistic… never hesitate to follow your initial instinct… the unknown could be the best thing that could ever happen to you.

I moved out of my penthouse on Armacost last week. It’s been a rough transition… emotionally and physically draining. I’m crashing at Sona’s… once again. Fortunately, I found a room to rent in the building next to hers. Sonali is pretty much like another sister of mine so it’ll be nice to have her around ☺ I’m really nervous about this whole situation, it’s quite a big change for me and with everything going on, I feel somewhat lost for the first time in my life. Fear is playing me lately and I’m not liking it too much. I guess it is a good thing to be out of your element once in awhile… and it’s somewhat driving me crazy, feelin a bit sad, yet at the same time determined and focused. My life is a rollercoaster right now and I’m not sure if I like this ride at the moment.

On a good note, I have never spent so much time down on the SaMo Pier. They put up a trapeze rig and I have developed an addiction ☺ It is the most freeing, free falling, out of control, adrenaline rush that has saved me from breaking down and crying in the corner… lol, kind of. I like it so much, it is yes, yet another one of my random goals to ‘fly’ in a professional show. I pretty much go every day if I can with another Lu, Erica… my fly girl partner in crime. We were invited to perform with the LA troupe this Sunday June 8th… one step closer to my crazy dream. I’ll be performing a Legs Catch with a return to the bar.. fancy, aye… I love it!! Come by to check it out. I can’t believe I’m doing it…

Other projects coming up:

June 1st... Ecookie NY Lookbook completed and printed. Did you get yours? Visit Ecookie NY in Venice on Abbot Kinney to check it out!

June 2nd… Semi Finalist voting round begins for Maxim Hometown Hotties. Sooooo embarrassing, but cool at the same time ;) hehe. Vote for your favorite!

June 6th/7th… Freestyle Yoga- EWorld Media Launch Party. Shot the very first Yoga episode with Jake Grace in Malibu. All in high def and beautiful landscape… on cliffs and in the water! SICK!

June 7th... Keep Photoshoot.

June 8th… Trapeze School New York Show down at SaMo Pier. 7pm… support the school and my very first flying show!!

June 21st… My first Ms. Fitness Competition this season… Hawaii ☺ I guess I should start learning my routine and preparing a speech.. yikes, I'm so behind! Just booked tickets and going with my mom!!

Far East Movement/Wong Fu Productions- Dance Like Michael Jackson Music video… coming soon.

Getting back on track here. Trying to stay focused, set goals and continue to have high expectations for myself. Life is crazy… I am crazy and I hope in the end, things work out.

One last thought… I still know what I want and nothing will hold me back. Time tells all.

Attract

2008-04-10T19:13:00.000-07:00

This morning I had an early morning staff meeting with Lululemon and it was one of the most inspiring meetings I have had in awhile. It was a major wake up call. We've all heard of maybe The Secret... Power of Intention... law of attraction... how the vibration we set out for ourself into the universe ultimately determines how we live our life.... ask and you shall receive.

The one thing I love about Lululemon as a company is the organic grass roots of how they run it. They base the company on helping their employees ACHIEVE their own personal goals. They hire the best the of the best, athletes only. Every single lulu is like minded and this is why we succeed. There are so many other reasons why I love this company, but this is what really hit home with me today.

DREAM freaking BIG.
One of the things that us Lu's have in the store are vision boards. I looked at mine and it really needs an update. It's great to look at it and check things off that I have accomplished. To really put it out there, I'm going to list some of the things that I visualize for myself... yup, I'm putting it right here for ya'll to read. Don't ever doubt what you want, otherwise it's never going to happen. No matter how big, extreme, out there your dreams are, if you want it to become reality, put it out there... think positive, live in the moment- be present with your thoughts... and it'll happen.

This is just a list, but in my head it's a beautiful picture... images that capture the true meaning of what my life has to offer. Here's a glimpse...in no particular order.

Passion:
-I will be an accomplished/established actress in the asian american community. Music videos, short films, feature films, commercials, tv and print
-I will be a successful fitness competitor- I will win the titles for USA and World.
-I will be on the cover of several magazines relating to health and fitness.
-I will make a difference in people's lives- inspire others to choose healthy active lifestyles
-I will be the top trainer at Equinox
-I will win the Maxim contest and be featured in the magazine with sophistication and class
-Livefit Studio will be a success in 5 years- will be sold and will still be a success

Personal:
-I will move into the cutest apartment with lots of character and charm, in the perfect location
-LOVE. will fall in it and stay in it
-marry & have a family someday
-I will become Auntie Amber ;)
-I will travel more than expected, be inspired and create
-my friends and family will be successful in their own journey and will always play an important role in my life

Material:
-get a new car
-own a home
-own a vacation home

Well, there you have it. My own intimate personal goals for you all to see... Please take it for what it's worth... I hope it inspires you to create your own vision :) If you are going to dream, you better dream big.

Sex Objects. Enough Said.

2008-04-02T17:47:00.000-07:00

Another Lululemon Event... if you can believe it. Our ambassador Dolphina from The Goddess Center in Marina Del Rey has recruited Kendrah and I from the Santa Monica Lu to help her at this very sexy event. We'll be showcasing some of Kiki's lingerie and teaching you how to work it, work it, work it!!!

This show is sweet, sophisticated, provocative, sexy...
Ladies only, invite only... come learn a few things, buy a few things, go home and teach your man a few things ;) It'll be a lot of fun and if you haven't seen Kiki's line yet... come check it out... her line is beautiful!!!

Sonali Bijor

2008-03-23T18:45:00.000-07:00

I've known this gal ever since elementary school and she is still my best friend today. Absolutely talented, this one. Please support her on this journey- she has such a zest for life, she is down to earth, beautiful, has an amazing soul and her voice... well, check it out for yourself. She rocks my world and she'll rock yours too.

Her website is still in the making- but please check it out. Leave comments and feel free to give feedback!!

Lots of love to you girl! Dream big and make it happen!!

SONALI BIJOR

Vote for me :)

2008-03-21T22:44:00.000-07:00

BEACH WORKOUTS!!

2008-03-14T10:41:00.000-07:00

Hey gang,

Spring is in the air and summer is just around the corner. You know what that means... the weather is beautiful and it's about that time again to get together and start doing beach workouts!!

Starting in April, LiveFit Studio Beach workouts will begin again. Classes will be 1 hour long, starting with an alignment flow warm up followed by fun fun fun... jumping, skipping, crawling, buddy stretches, med balls, strength and stability exercises...using Santa Monica Muscle beach as our playrgound... all functional fitness!!

The schedule is not yet set in stone- I'd like to get some feedback on preferred times. Saturday mornings are an option this summer!!

Here is a tentative schedule:
Monday evening: 7PM-8PM
Tuesday/Thur: 6:30AM-7:30AM
Fridays: 6AM-7AM
Saturdays: 10AM-11AM followed by brunch if you'd like to join!!

Unlimited Classes $100 month
Single Class $18

If you purchase unlimited classes, you will receive 1 private posture alignment session for yourself or for a friend.

Please pass this information along to any friends in the area who may be interested. Finalized schedule to be set by next week- get those requests in!!

See you soon!!

Amber =)

Exercise Therapist
PAS, AET Certified

amber@livefitstudio.com
www.livefitstudio.com

In a perfect world..

2008-03-02T14:46:00.000-08:00

My mood best translated thru the lyrics of the great Depeche Mode of the 80's...
why... because we all want to be loved :)

Somebody
Depeche Mode

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
He'll get my support
He will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
He'll hear me out
And wont easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact he'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
he will understand me
Aaaahhhhh....

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I dont want to be tied
To anyones strings
Im carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when Im asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
Ill get away with it
Aaaahhhhh....

"Make Art"

2008-02-29T17:17:00.000-08:00

Once- Best movie ever :)

"fair play for those who dare to dream and don't give up..."

ONCE- FALLING SLOWLY

Happy Valentines

2008-02-14T13:42:00.000-08:00

Thanks, Lyss... I do like her music :)
sassy and edgy.

"Little Bit"
Lykke Li, Sweden

hands down
i'm too proud for love
but with eyes shut
it's you i'm thinking of
but how we move from A to B?
it can't be up to me
'cause you don't know
eye to eye
thigh to thigh
i let go

i think i'm..

a little bit, a little bit
a little bit in love with you
but only if you're
a little but, a little bit, a little bit
in lo-lo-lo-lo-love with me
oh

ooo-ooo...

and for you i keep my legs apart
and forget about my tainted heart
and i will never ever be the first
to say it
but still I,
yes you know I..I..I..
i would do it,
push a button
pull a trigger,
climb a mountain
jump off a cliff,
'cause you know baby
i love you love you a little bit
i would do it, i would say it
i would mean it, we could do it
it was you and i and if only i..

i think i'm
a little bit, a little bit
a little bit in love with you
but only if you're
a little but, a little bit, little bit
in lo-lo-lo-lo-love with me

come here, stay with me
stroke me by the hair
'cause i would give anything, anything
to have you as my man

a little bit, a little bit
a little bit in love with you
but only if you're
a little but, a little bit, little bit
in lo-lo-lo-lo-love with me

train, train, train

2008-02-11T20:25:00.000-08:00

Today I slept and slept and slept. Why...because I've been feeling a little down these last few days and I've finally hit the wall. There has been a lot of Lululemon Events that I have been involved with so that has occupied a lot of my down time, but all that is over and I've been struck with less than pleasant thoughts and scenarios that I can't seem to shake off. With that being said, I'll leave it at that and explain what I will do to get over it...

Last year, I did two fitness shows for the first time. I chose to enter that world because I truly missed performing and training in general. I came into the end the of the season with little training and a half a** routine. This year, I wasn't sure if I was going to compete again... only because I am not quite sure if I like the scene, if you know what I mean. But, it's a go. I'm all in. My trainer wants me to do some of the other shows as well, (she used to do all of them, won them and now is pro) so she is motivating me and it's inspiring ;) Why the f not... I'm a competitor at heart.

So, this is where the fun begins. Been training for a month now at the gym... and now it's time to incorporate all my other interests. To kick the nonsense that is going on in my life to the curb, I'll immerse myself in my practice. Here's a glimpse:

Monday:
Gym- Legs (Nicole)
Power Yoga (Bryan)
Open Gym (LA Gymnastics)
Tuesday:
Core Energy Flow (Exhale)
Anusara Yoga (Lauri)
Wednesday:
Gym-Chest/Back (Nicole)
Thursday:
Gym-Arms (Nicole)
Budokon (Jay)
Dance (Dolphina)
Friday:
Power Yoga (SM)
Saturday:
OFF/Alignment Therapy
Sunday:
Core Enegery Flow (Exhale)
Dance (Lulu)
Power Yoga (Rudy)
BreakDance (EDGE)

Would like to add Parkour in there and maybe if I'm brave enough some Krav Maga.

Hopefully this will help prepare me for this season. I think my first competition will be in May. A few CA local ones, vegas 2x, miami, colorado and possibly hawaii. Aww any excuse to go to hawaii...

So there you go... get out there and move your body... you'll feel so much better, I know I do!

focus!

2008-02-07T12:48:00.000-08:00

Lyss was suppose to go to Spain in the summer, but it looks as if it may be too expensive. Soo, I think instead of her going, we're chatting about both taking 2 weeks or so off to travel together. Which is great, but this is where my business ambition/focus gets thrown in the back seat. Something that I seem to struggle with is my general desire to move move move. Nothing too extreme, but I can't seem to stay in one place for too long. There is too much unknown to be known and at this point, it seems all I can do is dream about it... and I feel stuck there. I'm not wanting much either... I don't want to take off and leave for months at a time- it's rather simple really- I'd just like to see how other people live...a taste of something different... another perspective. Maybe LA is getting to me...maybe not. The thing is, with the biz, I have the strongest desire to succeed, but it also constricts me from just getting up and leaving. But no worries LiveFit Studio crew- I've figured out how to balance it all. Aww the perks of being your own boss.

Well, enough rambling. Time for the gym... maybe some budokon, maybe some krav maga...I need to be worked out hard today and then crash tonight... I woke up wayyy to early.

peace out homies.
btw, random i know, but Step Up 2 comes out on Valentines Day and you must go see it. Pretty bad ass dancing it seems ;)

musica

2008-02-07T12:17:00.000-08:00

Check this event out... good music, great people...
(Thanks Jen!!)

Hotel Cafe Tour w/ Ingrid Michaelson, Cary Brothers, Meiko & more
The Music Box at the Fonda , Hollywood , CA
Sat, Apr 12, 2008 08:00 PM

I'm lovin me some chill/indie music lately... gotta love lyrics you can relate to.

Although I do have to say I've been rockin out to some old skool fav's... NIN, Bush, Live, The Killers, The Hives, Weezer, Pearl Jam.... so random and so opposite! But ya know, when you're in the mood, this'll do ya.

But, wait, listen to the new Usher song... it's pretty dope too.

Ok, I'm all over the board with music... just thought I'd share this cool event with y'all. My last concert was ...hmm... Damien Rice last year... danggg... love, love, love his music- sooo amazingly passionate, soooo much feeling, deep and moving. I'll be writing my review (hmm, I may be turning into Spencer, here) after the event, so check back if you're interested.

inspire me...

2008-02-03T16:42:00.000-08:00

Stella Im Hultberg is coming to SF in March and LA in August. I can't wait to see her art work in a near by gallery ... yay! My favorites are posted here and I especially would love to see her exhibit called 'Together, Alone'.

"Her work focuses on the organic relationship between people, the world that surrounds them and the world that lives inside of them. In that world she finds their stories, their dreams, their passions and their fears and brings them to life on to tea stained pages that become the stage. She begins with these intangible ideas and by working the canvas with inks and washes she begins to reveal the sensual characters that these ideas belong to. These women are stylized representations of idolized forms that have the ability to appear vulnerable and powerful at the same time".

VULNERABLE & POWERFUL

hmm. That's very much how I feel right now. Maybe a little more powerful considering it is me who has ultimately made some bold changes in my life at this time. I'm sitting alone in my new room, with my new bed, my new curtains, my old habits and hoping to come out stronger than I ever was before.

It's quite interesting what I have come across these last few days. One of my biggest clients- one who is a quadruple crown MILLIONAIRE- says I am the best at what I do and how simple it is going to be for me to succeed. God love her. Thank goodness for that push of positivity and encouragement because sometimes I feel I can so easily fall into self doubt.

The thing is, I write that I can fall into self doubt, but I never let that get the best of me. My vision and reality is quite clear. I've always been the type to see exactly what I want and do whatever necessary to make it happen. I remember early on, with gymnastics especially, through dance, through educational theatre- all I had to do was focus. I had the drive, the determination, the passion, the desire. I don't think I will ever lose that.

What is ironic, while I can be so high on drive, I can be so low at the same time. I was told (according to my astrological sign) that I am the type of person where my happiness is surely effected by how I happy I am in a relationship. I was always the type of person who believed that is crap. That you can be happy by yourself and you don't need anyone else to determine your happiness. But ya know, I think, now I believe it may be true. I know myself and I know I AM the type of person who enjoys sharing my life with someone. I love the feeling of being in love. It certainly inspires me and pushes my creativity and passion for life in general.

That being said, I'm vulnerable. Thank goodness my friends are like-minded individuals. What would it be like if you were not able to see the WORLD through other people's CREATIVITY??? The world would be bland and I would have no drive...

Thank goodness for artists.

dirty old man...

2008-02-02T13:44:00.001-08:00

what the hell. for the first time at the Lu, i got really really upset. working with the customers, i normally chat a bit, do a little self promotion for my studio, but this time, i just wanted run far far away from a particular character who represents the *ssholes of mankind. was doing what i normally do and this older gentleman, pig if you will, decides to follow me and as he continues, i ask him politely if he needed anything... which he did... a fit room. i take him over to them, he leans a little too close for comfort and whispers "i know i'm not suppose to say this, but you have a nice behind". ok. so, nice compliment and all, but completely disgusted by this dude. i laugh it off, say thanks.. he asks if i work out, i tell him yes and he replies with "its looks so nice, i can tell". nasty! the worst worst worst part, he stares me up and down...mind you, not a quick stare, but a full on up and down/super slow stare. thank goodness, i thought to myself, someone was coming around the corner to save me from this awkward moment. little did i know until a few minutes later, it was his wife. i ask her name (so i can write it on her door), i spelled it wrong on accident, she grabs the marker from hands... completely scratches out her misspelled name and slams the door in my face. lovely, i thought. i start walking away and they full on had a yelling argument over what just happened. they were making a huge scene. i felt so sick. i walked to the back room and waited till they left. man... one, i felt a bit violated... i know it could've been worse, and two, i felt really bad at the same time. the poor wife. she was sooo mad at me. I began to take it personal and then it made me sad... BUT i'm over the sadness and now im just mad ;) how rude! hmph.

LiveFit Studio photoshoot: 1st attempt

2008-01-24T22:27:00.000-08:00

When you have a one on one session with us at LiveFit, you leave with a therapy program with pictures and descriptions of everything we did at your appointment. Since we have been using older photos, I decided it was time to update our collection. We have about 400 therapy exercises and for our first night of shooting, I think we captured a few good ones. We had good intentions to get a lot of pics done, but soon enough Adam ended up teaching us all to breakdance the last hour ;) sooo fun.

Here are a few pics of me playing photographer...

and then a few pics of us trying to breakdance...

goofy...hehe.

Bic Runga- My two favorites right now...

2008-01-24T10:02:00.000-08:00

SWAY

Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better
Of me
Sometimes
When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down
I say it's all because of you
And here I
Go
Losing my
Control
I'm practising your name
So I can say it
To your face it doesn't
Seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things
You mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed it's time
Tell you why
I say it's
Infinitely true
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
And there's no cure
And no way to be sure
Why everythings turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now
It all turns sour
Come sweeten
My every afternoon
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Say you'll Stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Its all because of you
Its all because of you
Now it all turns sour
Come sweeten
My every afternoon
It's time
Tell you why
I say it's
Infinitely true
Say you'll stay

WHEN I SEE YOU SMILE

When I see you smile
It feels like I'm falling
It's not for anybody else to know
The way your face could light the bitter dark of every street
In every town I'll ever go
It's not for anybody else to know
For anybody else to know

When I see you smile
First thing in the morning
It raises curtains on your lazy eyes
Could it be that you and I have the greatest love to ever be
How could this have ever been before?
It's not for anybody else to know
For anybody else to know

When Friday night arrives
We'll let it pass outside the door
This is not for anybody else
Anybody else to know

crazy in...

2008-01-23T14:24:00.000-08:00

oh where do i start-

hmm... today, i am happy :)

It's 2:30pm- an overcast day here in LA...in my apartment listening to some music, chillin out and enjoying today. Woke up early this morning to teach class- which by the way, will have a home very very soon. It seems March/April will be the grand opening of Livefit Studio's very first location!! The studio plans are incredible. Lauri (Kamala Love) has done an amazing job with designing the space. New hardwood floors, rubber floors, purrty stone walls, orchids galore and GREAT people, great classes. Collaborating with everyone has been super fun and I can't wait to open the doors and offer all of the cool classes Livefit Studio will have. Alignment therapy, stott pilates, yoga, 360 yoga, dance, budakon.... it's going to be great. yay!

I can't tell you how excited I am about all that... this year is already a little wild, but I'm enjoying the vision coming to life. If only all of my visions would come true I would be most excited. Hey, if you see it, believe in it and it'll happen... I know it will.. I FEEL it. Boy, do I feel it... crazy I tell you.

So I also feel like this year is going to be like no other... on that note, I'm going to end this blog because, well, quite honestly, I feel really happy this exact moment and I'm going to go dance around my apartment while I still have it to myself.

gramps nimedez age 100

2008-01-23T13:00:00.001-08:00

he was the greatest grandpa in the world...

"GERARDO A. NIMEDEZ Age 100. He was born to Alejandro Nimedez & Saturnina Anchita in the Philippines, April 20, 1907. He entered into rest at his home in Union City, January 15, 2008. He immigrated to America in 1927, first to Alaska, then Seattle, and finally settled in Oakland, preferring the weather further south. Drafted into the U. S. Army, he served with honor during WWII. He was active in the Rizal Chapter, American Legion Post #598, Oakland, and was an avid gardener. For over 30 years, he was a waitperson at the Claremont Hotel, retiring in 1973. Surviving Gerardo are his wife of 60 years, Josefina; sons Arthur Nimedez, Union City; Gerald (Dawna) Nimedez, Orinda and Alex Nimedez, Phoenix, AZ; grandchildren Siobhan (Ray Pagtakhan) Nimedez, Oakland; Alex Nimedez, Jr., Elk Grove; Amber Nimedez, Los Angeles; Aaron (Vanessa) Nimedez, Elk Grove; Alyssa Nimedez, San Diego; Andrew Nimedez, Phoenix and Garrett Nimedez, San Diego. He is also survived by three great grandchildren, Jordan, Janelle & Joel Nimedez, Elk Grove, and one brother, Greg Nimedez, Hayward."

...and he will never ever be forgotten. As my family gathered to say our goodbyes, I couldn't help but watch my grandmother. I went over to comfort her and she kept saying "no more grandpa..." :( My grandparents were married 60 years and it broke my heart to see her feel so alone, even with all the family around. In the end, I couldn't help but to realize how amazing my grandparents love for eachother really was. I only wish I will have the same in my life- to live just as long, to live just as healthy. To live until the end with the one I love, to stay in love and to cherish it as much as they cherished eachother.

bye gramps... your grandkids love you... especially your 3rd eldest ;)

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2008-01-07T19:06:00.000-08:00

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goals, blah blah blah

2008-01-05T18:39:00.000-08:00

- train w/ nicole 3x week

- eat organic

- alignment therapy after each workout

-pay credit card

-teacher training- yoga therapy, stott pilates

-video/imovie projects

-write more consistently personal and creative

-another indie
-travel: hawaii, vegas, switzerland, hong kong, spain ... ok ok, at least 2 of those

-ms fitness/model (ha!)

-grow livefit studio

-grow w/ lulu... merching projects

-bodega 1x w/ the girls

-yoga and dance with the lulu girls 1x week

have people send in positive feedback to la times about livefit studio

thanks!!

the red boat

2008-01-04T18:13:00.000-08:00

wind whistling thru the air

as the red boat sways back and forth in the water

heads turn as if there were two people right around the corner

yet dark shadows casting down is all they see

fingertips alongside the frame of her face

down her back, wrapping around the small of her waist

eyes shut all you hear is the rhythm of breathing

as the crisp cold air dances along their faces.

eyes open and the beauty of this picture lies within the two

standing around the corner escaping the world around them

for just one minute.

the boat is still and it is clear

a yellow building

corroded brick

a stream of water

a reflection appears

and a glimpse of pure innocence and beauty between two people

light up the the cold, dark winter day.

**Inspired by a glimpse of a photo-

May I ask, what else could you want?

Old Skool

2007-12-30T21:38:00.001-08:00

back in the day ;)

can you pick me out? lol.

not so delicious---now what.

2007-12-25T01:06:00.000-08:00

Christmas Eve

2007-12-25T00:24:00.000-08:00

Nimedez girls reunited...

Back in the bay on Christmas Eve...

A glimpse of the crazies:

breathe deeply

2007-12-22T22:49:00.000-08:00

I'm so excited to go home and see my family... one more full day and then monday morning i'm off to LAX to fly to the bay. 4 days with my sisters...yay!! Then Alyssa will be flying back with me to LA and she'll hang out till Sunday. Rodney (my dearest best friend) is coming to LA and leaving on the 30th as well. West Hollywood here we come. Definitely planning on getting a great bottle of wine and dine like there is no tomorrow. Just what I need.

As this year comes to end I have a ton I want to accomplish. I just need a minute to focus and gather my thoughts to implement my vision. And to breathe. Feels like I've been holding my breathe the last few weeks. I don't really understand it... so much is going on... so much is changing and I can't quite accept or deny it.

I suppose I should jot down some things that I'd like to do in no particular order...

-travel- I 'hosted' two students from Japan last year when I lived in San Diego. Loved it, love them. I told them one day I 'd visit them and I'd really like to do that. I also lived with 2 gals from Hong Kong..Peter from Sweden...Alberto from Spain...would love to go and visit them as well (I lived in an international house in college). And can't forget my cousin Harry from Zurich- there are 2 teacher trainings for yoga therapeutics with Doug Keller out there in Switzerland... unbelievable!! Might as well kill two birds with one stone, ya? Perfect opp. No excuses although money at this point would be my main "excuse". Ehh, whatevs... u only live once right.

-studio- grow grow grow. get people well. get people in shape. get people motivated. get people excited about life. inspire-inspire-inspire!!

-fitness- work it out!! ms. fitness... ehh, won't get into that this blog.

-dance- dance like no ones watching, right! incorporate dance into the studio... getting the dance community to be more aware of alignment. Also, I think I want to go back and create dance/gymnastics pieces again... I miss the freedom of movement... on that note... brb.. gonna dance around for a hot minute.

i'm back.

-alignment- Steph had a vedic reading done on me (she was seeing if we would make good business partners)... interesting how spot on it was. I look forward to seeing how it goes, but what I've taken from it is nothing but a positive outlook into the future.

-relationships- not talking about a specific one, I'd just like all of my relationships to be true. make sense? Not that they already aren't, but I need to make sure I can count on my instincts with people and I guess be true with myself. Oh, and to create more relationships- I've noticed a tremendous impact on my life when I surround myself with people who have a DREAM and go after it. Lulu girls are big dreamers and I love it when I go into work and get that rush of motivation.

-wine and dine with friends- I must say I absolutely love my small group of close friends. We love Bodega (a small intimate wine bar on Broadway/Santa Monica) and we go maybe 1x month (due to our hectic schedules). My goal is to see them 1x week there and try a new bottle every week... yikes... I sound like a lush, but ya'll know I'm not... well hmm.. I know I get a bit woozy over 1 full glass, but come on... I'm a tiny girl!! Plus, how can you beat $20 Tuesdays. Me, Sona and Crystal appreciate that!! Love those girls, love the conversation, love catching up, love the wine, love the hummus dip, love the laughing!!!!!

So those are just a few things... '08 is going to be full of unexpectedness. Scary, but Im just going to go with it and go for it... so come at me world, I'm ready for you.

2007-12-22T10:12:00.000-08:00

I've sat here for 26 minutes and I can't seem to get the thoughts out of my head and into my blog... so, I'll go now. Have lots to say, but I think I'll keep it in today. Blehhhhhhh.

:-/ Amber

Song of the week...

2007-12-22T10:04:00.000-08:00

Haven't been writing in awhile... but here's the song I've been obsessed with the last few days...
How can you not rock out to this!! Soul and passion man. Gotta love this stuff. Are you feelin it???!!!

Alicia Keys No One Lyrics

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry cause
Everything gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

The world is changing at such a rapid rate that waiting to implement changes will leave you 2 steps behind: DO IT NOW!

2007-12-17T12:25:00.000-08:00

So long weekend...

2007-12-15T20:42:00.000-08:00

What a fast weekend it has been! Work, work and more work. Luckily, friday I was able to attend my pilates class with Jennifer. Woke up, had some oatmeal and headed out to work out. Laura's pilates studio has a similar layout as to what my studio will end up looking like and I always get a rush of excitement being in there. I'm thinking of getting certified in STOTT pilates so I can offer it at Livefit. We'll see. Anywho, class was fabulous, although there was an obnoxious lady in there that would rather gossip then work out. Slightly annoying, but I still enjoyed being there. Directly afterwards, I headed back home and to my surprise it was one of the loveliest rides home ever. I'll spare you the details but don't you just love unexpected things that happen to you. Just when you think otherwise, something happens and makes you go hmmmmm.... and then leaves you with the biggest smile on your face for the rest of the day. To wrap up friday, I saw a few clients later that day and then had a glass of wine with my gal pal Sona to cap the night off. How perfect is that.

Saturday was pretty nice- I was able to sleep in for once and headed out to Lulu at noon. I step out of the backroom 5 minutes before my shift ends and how lovely, I see some of my bestest friends just chillin out shopping in my store. The random thing is that they didn't plan on meeting up there at the same time. Luckily, I was off so we all headed over to Real Food Daily and had a fantabulous time catching up and chatting over a nice delicious dinner. I love love love good food and great company. My friends here are amazing- I love having them around- they are my family away from home.

After dinner I had a chat with my little sister and ... oh how proud am I of her! She's such an inspiration- she really goes after her dreams and makes the best impression to those around her. Our conversation was cut short as she had some other important incoming call that she just had to answer. Made it home and fell asleep fast for once.

Sunday morning I headed out to work early. Had a yoga class and now I'm home. Work was pretty busy and a lady approached me and said the following: "you ate a Real Food Daily yesterday and you and your friends were talking about travel- don't you go to power yoga/budakon over on santa monica as well".... HELLO stalker!! That was super scary. I politely said yes and she says she always see's me, yet I've never seen this woman in my life. Crazy funny. I asked her how she knew about my conversation and she said she was eavesdropping because she sat right next to us. How lovely.

It's 6:15pm and I'm wondering. Just wondering. Wondering random thoughts and what the new year will bring. I think I'll go lay on my bed, stare at the ceiling and wonder some more. Let my thoughts overwhelm my reality so I can absorb what I really want and need. Geez, it's all about wanting and needing, aye... Not really I guess... I'm just in the mood to chill and zone out and wait for something surprising to happen. Hm, I guess nobody really gets anything from waiting... you have to make it happen if you really want it to. Ok, I'll do just that. (Hope you just enjoyed the conversation I just had with myself)

random thoughts:
-Be direct
-Express how you feel
-go after what you want
-make it happen
-follow your instinct
-don't be too afraid
-enjoy life

Toodles ya'll.
-If you want it, go after it

song lyrics

2007-12-13T16:59:00.000-08:00

Today I heard the song "Almost Lover" by Fine Frenzy 3 times at work. Every single time I zoned out and was consumed by the story of the song. I've always been the type to fall in love with a song that brings me some sort of heartache. I absolutely love those types of songs... strange, I know. Something about the way they suck my existence into their reality grabs my attention and swallows me whole.

I butchered the lyrics a bit to make it slightly universal, but could you imagine going thru this:

A hopeless dream
trying not to think about it
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Never thought it'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do.

Ehhh- if that means nothing to you, have you no emotion?! I suppose you may, I guess I'm just a sap. Which may actually surprise some of you since these days I seem to be anti-romantic... but the truth is... I'm the biggest hopeless romantic out there. In shock? Come on now, who really isn't one?

Hey on another note, we switched up the ipod after the 3rd time round and decided to play 50 Cent/JT : AYO Technology...and ooooo-oooooh boy... I snapped out of that mode and shook it up, baby!

How can you not to these lyrics!!

Let me talk to ya

Baby it's a new age, you're like my new craze
Let's get together maybe we can start a new phase
The smokes got the club all hazy, spotlights don't do you justice baby
Why don't you come over here, you got me saying

Aayoo
I'm tired of using technology, why don't you sit down on top of me?

Aayoo
I'm tired of using technology, I need you right in front of me
Ooh, she wants it, uh uh, she wants it
Ooh, she wants it (soo), I got to give it to her

HOTTTTT!

50 Cent Lyrics

(who am I posting a video!)

one last thought before I attack the daily challenge of trying to fall asleep...

2007-12-12T23:03:00.000-08:00

I can't wait to go home for Christmas. I am feeling the need for some down to earth, wholesome quality time with the fam. Looking forward to karate chopping my little sister, driving my bro in law crazy, while adoring my older sisters collection of heels and clothes I can only dream of owning. Life with the Nimedez girls is an adventure in itself...

going with the flow

2007-12-12T22:28:00.000-08:00

Today I've realized I'm going to do what I want to do, feel what I want to feel, hope for the best, take a chance, take a risk, follow my instinct and hope it doesn't kick my ass or anyone else's in the process. Blog or not to blog about it, I choose not to tonight.

'feelin a little nuts, but lovin it'.

Friends are more important than money.

2007-12-11T23:28:00.000-08:00

When I tell people my best friends today are the same people who I went to elementary school with, the reaction is always surprising. It's quite simple really. Regardless if we talk once a week or once a month, our connection never fails. We're like 4 peas in a pod... umm, maybe this is a better example: we're like Sex and the City combined with Will and Grace. That's me, Rodney, Sonali and Dustin. I just love them. It's always a comfort to look at old pictures of us and know no matter what, my friends will understand, cast no judgement, be supportive and above all, be bluntly honest with the utmost respect. Thanks, loves... and to all my friends- you mean the world to me.

Live near the ocean and inhale the pure salt air that flows over the water, Vancouver will do nicely.

2007-12-10T09:19:00.001-08:00

Class was great this morning. Gotta love Billy, Dell and Adam. They are such troopers and have been extremely dedicated from the start. We normally go to Santa Monica Beach in the morning, but it's getting so frickin' cold out!! The last time we were there the waves were super high and it was gorgeous. This morning we had class indoors and we had a view of the filthy layer smog hovering over the mountains. It's such a shame that LA is considered the armpit of California... little do people know there ARE beautiful pockets goodness down here... you just have to be patient and search for them.

I have to mention I'm loving me some Canada more and more these days. Someday I will visit Vancouver to experience the delicousness of pure air and endless amounts of nature's beauty. Yes, yes... for those of you that know me best, it may sound as if I'm some super nature girl right now, but you know I appreciate it... just as long as I'm bundled up in some lulu wear, done up with a cup of either hot tea/coffee/latte/cocoa with marshmellows in hand, fire near by and friends in tow- I'm all good to just sit back and enjoy the view.

Why Canada? For some reason, this past year Canada has been brought to my attention several times from every direction. I wonder why, but I'm curious and have been itching to travel. It's been way to long. The last time I travelled out of the US was probably '02 to Italy. Holy shenanigans... that's frickin' 5 years. My god... ok, goal for the new year... take some time off to travel. I think I'll plan a retreat and write it off ;) On that note, I'm going to end this here to research when/where I can escape to in '08.

Things to do today: bar method, yoga at exhale, anusara at Lauri's- visit lulu? One more thing to you... visit a lululemon store... I work there... it's my "fun" job and I adore the girls that I work with and I love the company... simply amazing... and canadian! Peace out.

Successful people replace the words 'wish' 'should' and 'try' with 'I will' Ineffective people don't.

2007-12-09T22:08:00.000-08:00

My darling friend Spencer sends out email reminders to his friends and family to read his blogs. I'm always amazed how he keeps it up. I always thought to myself... that is pretty cool... I should try doing that. Growing up, I always had the desire to write down my thoughts and feelings so I can go back and reminisce about how I was feeling at that time. These days, it's been difficult for me to keep an ongoing journal and it kinda sorta bugs me that I don't make time for writing. So, I'm going to give this a shot...forget the I should... I will, dangit! So... to all my friends, excuse the mass email and apologies in advance for joining Spencer in this journey of virtual blogging and invites to read some of my random nonsense.

2007 An interesting year. Goals accomplished.

#1: Work on an indie. Man, Wong Fu Productions rocks and that's all I have to say. Love them. Thanks to them, I walked into an LA movie theatre and some random guy gave me a hug. No, seriously... they are amazing. Incredibly talented and super fun to work with. A Moment With You was one of the greatest projects I've ever worked on!! Aw memories... memories I can't quite let go of. Check them out- I can't express enough how talented these guys are.

#2: Move to LA already. Woohoo! It only took 7 years.

#3: Get ready to compete in Ms. Fitness. WHAT??? I said, get ready... Thanks Christopher for talking me into going to Vegas this year. So I was one off from actually placing, but my goodness, it was the best experience for me all year long. Met some amazingly awesome fitness gals and had the opportunity to work with an unbelievable photographer. Next year... top 3 baby.

#4: Start my own business... and lovin it! Become an entrepreneur. It will change your dang life. Check it out: Livefit Studio. Rock it out and just do it!!

Speaking of the studio, I think I may have to end this blog. I teach class tomorrow at 6:30AM. This was fun. Until next time... in the words of my good friend Steph... Hasta la pasta.